Tuesday, July 04, 2006

ARRESTED! (that would be me)

Actually, I probably should have titled this, “Re-arrested”. :-)

Apprehended . . . captured . . . hooked . . . picked up, pulled in, taken in . . . seized . . . taken prisoner . . . by the love of Jesus. God, who became a man—for me!

For months now, I have been praying that the Lord would stir up my heart for the lost . . . a heart to extend the Kingdom . . . a heart to actively do my part to fulfill the Great Commission. I got an answer to my prayer. But it came in such an unexpected, overwhelming and wonderful way – and only then did I realize it was not a heart for the lost that I was lacking!

For several weeks now, I have felt a compulsion, a need to take a fresh look through the Gospels at the One in the Trinity who was fully God, yet fully human—Jesus. I have for many years felt very close to God as my Father, and to the Holy Spirit as my Comforter, my Friend and my Guide, both empowering me and fellowshipping with me.

But Jesus? . . . I am deeply assured of Him as my Savior, my Redeemer, my Lord, and my God, the One who sits at the right hand of the Father. I would not be where I am today were it not for encountering Him as the Way, the Truth and the Life.

But the Son of God—Savior, Redeemer, Lord, God—was also the Son of Man—brother, cousin, nephew, friend, carpenter’s son, mother’s little baby.

In his book, “God Came Near”, Max Lucado writes:

“For thirty-three years he would feel everything you and I ever felt. He felt weak. He grew weary. He was afraid of failure. He was susceptible to wooing women. He got colds, burped, and had body odor. His feelings got hurt. His feet got tired. And his head ached.

To think of Jesus in such a light is—well, it seems almost irreverent, doesn’t it? It’s not something we like to do; it’s uncomfortable. It is much easier to keep the humanity out of the incarnation. Clean the manure from around the manger. Wipe the sweat out of his eyes. Pretend he never snored or blew his nose or hit his thumb with a hammer.

He’s easier to stomach that way. There is something about keeping him divine that keeps him distant, packaged, predictable.

But don’t do it. For heaven’s sake, don’t. Let him be as human as he intended to be. Let him into the muck and mire of our world. For only if we let him in can he pull us out.”

Last week I spent some time reviewing Max Lucado’s 8-week book/video study, Next Door Savior. I watched all of the video segments while reading along in the participant's guide. When Donna awoke from a nap, she found me with tears streaming down my face. I just could not stop, but neither could I stop smiling at the same time. :-) I told her that I was just completely overwhelmed (in the most wonderful way), as I never have been, by Jesus—God who became a man for me. Since then, I have sensed daily not my nearness to Jesus, but rather His nearness to me.

The most practical way I could explain it to her was with this: I never had the opportunity to meet my Grandfather, Vernon Austin Allred. He died of cancer before my father completed his senior year in high school. But from a young age, my Memaw (his wife who died a few years ago), my great aunts and uncles, my Dad and his brother told me stories and stories about Vernon. I grew to know him and to love him, and even to miss him dearly, not only from the stories I was told - but by the great love, affection, tenderness, honor and respect from which everyone spoke of him. All of these things brought near to me a man I had never met.

As I listened to Max Lucado underscore the humanity of Jesus through different snapshots of the Gospels, Jesus came alive and came near to me, is near to me in a way that rivals anything I have experienced. And the closer He gets, the more I am overcome by how much He loves me - and I am even more irresistibly drawn to Him and by Him. I haven't been able to get through a day yet without tears coming to the surface, knowing just how close He came for me—because He loved me.

Divinity came down in a body that was created just like mine. God came down in a way that He knew I could most relate to Him (and further, to the Father and the Holy Spirit) - as a human like me. "For God so loved the world" . . . that He came near to the ones He loves. :-) And He left it to humans, to us, to continue bringing Him near to others (the Great Commission).

Earlier, I said . . . for months, I have been praying that the Lord would stir up my heart for those who are lost. I have unexpectedly found that (and maybe this is a "duh" moment?) it was not a heart for the lost which I was lacking. What I needed was a heart that was undone—arrested—by Jesus' love for me, which compelled Him to come down here for me. For that is the fire compelling me to "go" and share this with others, to take Him near to the ones He loves. :-)

Do you know how dearly, dearly you are loved?

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Survey Says!

I saw this originally posted
Here by Dee

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Dawn
2. DDA - my best friend calls me by my initials
3. Dawnfy - a nick given to me by my lil bro Gabe, whom I called* Babe
~
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. TSBDawn - still have it, the TSB = Tiffany Shea Band whom I used to manage in Dallas
2. Dawntrado - my old work SN when I was with Contrado
3. Dda65 - the first SN I ever had . . . I know - incredibly creative O.o
~
THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. That the glass is neither half empty nor half full but rather - just right
2. That I am compelled to believe that no one is beyond hope
3. That the "little things" have the most meaning for me
~
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I still have a tendency to get defensive easily
2. I still feel more comfortable putting myself on paper instead of into verbal words
3. Can I come back to this later? . . . oh fine! Procrastination - there - I said it! >_<
~
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. English
3. German . . . though I feel "Texan" should really be in there somewhere! o¿o
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THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. other drivers - especially those who got their license out of a Cracker Jack box!
2. spiders - because even bites of little ones cause a reaction
3. risking rejection by telling my (married) sister that I am gay
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THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Brushing my teeth!
2. Telling at least one person that I love them
3. Spending time with God
~
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. one of my favorite T's
2. a pair of shorts
3. socks - my feet are cold!
~
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Margaret Becker - Contemporary Christian, reminds me of Heart, gutsy & passionate
2. Tiffany Shea - local Dallas indie
3. Sally Semrad - local Austin indie
~
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "The Stranger" by Melissa Ferrick, in my CD player right now
2. "Little Love" by Melissa Ferrick
3. "Inconsequential" by Sally Semrad
~
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Get way back in shape
2. Get completely out of debt
3. Visit my mother
~
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP(besides love):
1. Spontenaity
2. Not only listening, but really hearing me
3. Finding that the most important and meaningful things are little
~
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. My favorite job was working at Toys 'R' Us
2. I am most comfortable crying in the shower . . . quietly
3. Why yes! I would love to go thru adolesence, junior high and high school again! \O/
~
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (or same) SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes and smile
2. Comfortable in their own skin - even when they are uncomfortable
3. Touchy-feely, cause I am!
~
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Give up on anyone
2. Be inhumane to animals or people
3. Continue to become whole without God in my life
~
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading comics! Wolverine, X-Men, Spider-Girl
2. Listening to and learning from others
3. Spending quality time with good friends
~
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get back into shape
2. Go see a movie!
3. Have all the laundry done!
~
THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
1. I have
2. never been
3. career-driven - but I make a very good living
~
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Bora Bora - the Overwater Bungalows!
2. Australia
3. New Zealand
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THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Gabriela Nikita
2. Michael Kellan - a girl, btw
3. I love the name Sigourney
~
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Play the guitar well
2. See my mother truly happy
3. Have a relationship with my dad again
~
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Larry
2. Darryl
3. and my other brother Darryl

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Things I Like...and Don't

Cartoons, comics and animation
History, world events and serious conversations
Liver and Onions
Sleeping in on Saturday (as if!)
Spending time with good friends
When people don't use their turn signals
Sunsets and storms with lightning
Purple, my favorite color
Inhumanity in any form
Surpises and spontaneity
Playing guitar, singing in the shower
Arrogance and pride
Listening to what others have to say
Being heard
Willful, blatant ignorance
I'm Gay - You're Straight
We're the Same only Different
There is a Cure
for Ignorance

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Crazy Dawn

Okay, is this cheating? I've been trying to add a pic to my profile using "Edit Profile" which takes me to a website to download something I don't want. So I copied the URL from the pic I posted in my Blog and pasted it into my Profile. Nyah, nyah, nyah, nyaaaaah, nyah!

Crazy Dawn! Posted by Hello

Friday, February 18, 2005

Fumbling Around

Well... I was attempting to add a picture to my profile. Evidently, a little more fumbling is required. Wouldn't you say?

Fumbling with BloggerBot and hello from picasa! Oh well - it's still me! O.o Posted by Hello

Soup Can Symmetry

Is it important to anyone else out there that the soup cans on your neighborhood grocery store shelves display some sense of symmetry? I happen to like all the Campbell's soup cans facing the same way, as if at attention. "About face, Cream of Chicken!" If I pull a can or two off the shelf, I feel compelled to pull up another can into the empty spot at the front of the shelf. And then I feel a need to turn the cans on either side until their labels display a symmetry. This of course makes the very corners of my mouth turn slightly to compliment the gleam of satisfaction in my eyes.

Why do I do this?

a: the labels are easier to read when all facing the same way
b: it's a dirty job but someone has to do it
c: there must be a serious control issue here
d: it indicates a highly artistic sensitivity to beauty in symmetry
e: an overexposure to Andy Warhol-isms
f: all of the above
g: ???

I haven't even mentioned the magazine racks at the registers! Don't even get me started!

So... how about you?

O.o